Night

So we are reading Night in the English classes. This is a Holocaust memoir written by Elie Wiesel. I have never read it before, but can be grateful for the memory preserved on page by Wiesel. However grateful I am, I do not like to focus on such sad, horrific stories and planning for the classes has become a challenge because of this book. I just want it to be over so that I wouldn't have to read about these ghastly memories. To top it all off the students do not see any value in this book. I find it ironic because every single one of them would have been targeted by Hitler. They are just so focused on the now, not their future or the world's history, but NOW! Even though it is a thin book, it has taken us a long time to read 60 pages in class.

What's the point to this life?

So lately I’ve been asking myself… what’s the point? What’s the point of working at a job that is a lot of stress? What’s the point of even attempting at a career when I could easily get a low paying job that I wouldn’t have to care about (if you know me at all you know that I wouldn’t be content with a low paying, responsibility-free job)? I’ve been wondering about the point of life for awhile now, but the stress of student teaching has really made me wonder what do I want most from life?

After a little bit of thought I can honestly say I want a family first and foremost out of life. However, I don’t think I could handle the stress of bringing children into this world without insurance and financial stability. How do you do it otherwise? Since Chris doesn’t have a career yet and I’m at the beginning of my own journey, the idea of having a family will have to be put on hold for a couple of years right??? Unfortunately I have strategically placed these pictures of Chris and I on the wall at eye level by my computer… smart huh? Now all I see are our cute faces smiling back at us and I wonder when is our day for a family going to come?